To Love Again
Written by Maxine
To Love Again Chapter 1 As the few employees had gathered in the big conference room at Titan Towers inStamford Connecticut. They Men and Women watched as their boss paced around theroom and grumbled under his breath about shitty attitudes, injuries and carelessness while working. They were waiting for either A) Vince to yell or B) Vince’s head blow up and takeout the state of Connecticut with it. Most of them were hoping for B...They’drather take a bullet to the head then to hear another one of Vince’s yellingspeeches. Vince finally stopped in the middle of the long oak table and said, “I’ve come toa rational decision. Everyone sitting in this room today has had shittyattitudes...you’ve all had bad injuries to try and come back from...and you’regetting sloppy in the damn ring.” Vince as in Vince McMahon the owner and CEO of the WWE (World WrestlingEntertainment, Standing by his side was his wife Linda, and his two childrenShane and Stephanie. Vince continued to walk around the room...he looked from wrestler to wrestler towrestler. He started off, “Mark (Undertaker) Look at you.” Mark looked down andsaid, “I have, please don’t ask me to do it again I may fall in love with myself.” That earned a round of boisterous laughter from the other wrestlers sitting atthe table. Vince humored Mark and said, “And just how would that go abouthappening?” Mark said, “Well because Vince, I know what I’m packin’ in my jeans.”Err go another round of laughter. Vince couldn’t help but laugheither...Stephanie and Linda blushed a little. Vince said, “Anyways...the point I’m trying to make is for the next 2 months, youselective few are going to fly out to Colorado and get some much needed Rest andRelaxation...Take your families to spend time, or don’t take your families to runaround your rooms naked I don’t care...but I want you all to come back withbetter attitudes, bodies healed...and I want the moves in that ring out there tobe crisp and refreshed. I will have an extra gym set up and a ring set up forthose of you who can’t seem to stay away from either.” Glenn smiled his dopey smile and then raised his hand. Vince said, “Glenn why areyou raising your hand...this is not grade school.” Glenn said, “You’re theboss...you think I’m stupid enough to cut you off while you’re speaking? Justbecause I let you make my character some what dense, doesn’t mean I am also.” Mark leaned back in his chair and folded his arms over his chest and said,“Could’ve fooled me.” Glenn pointed at Mark and said, “Watch it Deadman.” Marksaid, “Oooo...or what...You gonna tell my mama after school what I said bout ya?”Glenn said, “Yea...And she’d beat you with an inch of your life.” Mark moved around a little and said, “Shit you know you’re right...My mama wouldtoo...Hell I maybe 3 feet taller then her...but she can still put the fear of Godinto me. (In his best mom voice) Boy I brought you into this world after 59 hoursof labor with no drugs...and with as much pain as you’ve caused me...I can gothrough a little more to take you right back out. Ya little son of bitch.” Everyone in the room calmed down and Vince said, “Glenn what was your question?”Glenn said, “What’s so special about Colorado...Anything in particular?” Vincesaid, “MY God daughter down there owns her own Bed & Breakfast. She’s alreadysaid she’d take you lot there for the next 2 months. So don’t even think of goingno where else. You’ll be there for the duration.” So after being handed plane tickets and 2 month R & R papers, the selected fewwent to the paring garage where all their stuff had been packed up and loadedinto two small vans and then a limo the size of New York picked up the wrestlersand headed to the airport. Chapter 2 Tyra made her way around the bed and breakfast…making sure everything was up topar. She made sure all the rooms had fresh linen, clean and polished wood floors,bathrooms fully stocked with everything someone would need for a relaxing 2 monthvacation. Curtains cleaned and put back up. Even that stereo type little mints onthe customers pillows for when they arrive. I walked down stairs just as a few black limos were pulling into the gated Wineand Roses bed and breakfast...coming up the drive. My concierge Felipe, asomewhat up tight French man, who’d gotten his American Citizenship when he was10. Walked over and in his beautiful French accent said, “What a haul...sweatymuscled up wrestlers for the next two months.” I nudge Felipe with my elbow as the wrestlers started walking towards the hugedouble wooden French doors and said, “Felipe! Ne pensez pas même à être grossierà mes employés de parrains... et l'insulte de don't leur cause d'intellegencecertains sont plus futée puis vous ou j'a remonté.” Felipe said, “Délicat délicat, particulièrement hommes d'odeury d'excédent.” Ilooked and Felipe and said, “Cut it and smile.” Felipe nodded and smiled... The wrestlers walked in and stood in line. Shane and Stephanie walked up and Igave them both hugs and kisses on the cheeks...Steph said, “The drive up here wasbeautiful...” I said, “Girl you wait until you see the sun rise and sunset...you’ll never want to leave.” Shane’s wife Maurisa said, “I already don’twant to.” Shane said, “Well...C’mon let me introduce you to some friends.” I walked withhim...and starting with two huge men one with auburn hair covered in tattoos, andone with brunette ringlets and ink free skin with a short redhead attached to theink free one...Shane said, “Mark Callaway (Undertaker), Glenn Jacobs (Kane), TinaJacobs(Fyre) Glenn’s wife.” I shook their hands granted the big tattooed guy held onto my hand a littlelonger then I expected or wanted. As we continued down the line, Shane said,“David Bautista, Samantha Bautista (Faruza) Dave’s wife. Paul Levesque,Stephanie’s fiancé. Mark Jindrak and his soon to be bride Athena Mostly everyonecalls her Ena for short.” Glenn watched as Mark stood there staring after the breeze that just blew bythem...Mark’s emerald green orbs were fixed on the girl...she had to of beenabout 5’10” with the longest legs, and around 125lbs...she needed to be fattenedup a little...she had the most amazing purple colored eyes he’d ever seen andlong waist length brunette hair. She couldn’t have been anything older then 19. Shane said, “Guys this is Tyra Billings...she’s our God sister, and mom and dad’sGod Daughter. She’s the owner of this establishment.” I said, “If you needanything...or something isn’t to your liking...please don’t hesitate to let me orone of my staff know immediately...and we’ll fix it right away. I’m sure you’reall tired from your travels...let’s get you settled for the night.” I could feel the big tattooed guys eyes on me...there was something about hisrough edges that made him appealing to me. I didn’t think anything about it asFelipe and I showed the guests to their rooms...as luck would have it Mark’s roomwas next to mine on the 3rd floor. We had a connecting door. I wouldn’t mind“accidentally” walking in on him in the shower once. I giggled to myself as I pulled the covers up and turned the light out...for thefirst night wasn’t bad...I just wish I wouldn’t of known what was in store for me. TRANSLATION French: Felipe! Ne pensez pas même à être grossier à mes employés de parrains...et l'insulte de don't leur cause d'intellegence certains sont plus futée puisvous ou j'a remonté.English: Felipe! Dont even think of being rude to my Godfathers employees...Anddon't insult their intellegence cause some are smarter then you or me put together.French: Délicat délicat, particulièrement hommes d'odeury d'excédent.English: Touchy touchy, especially over smelly men Chapter 3 The following morning, I showered and was down making sure the breakfast wasbeing cooked for the guys. The big snow hadn’t even come yet...there was a lightdusting on the ground, but you could still see the grass under it. It was around45 degrees outside...not too cold...but cold enough for a sweatshirt and jeans. Mark sat in the huge dinning room that had been prepared for him and theothers...he watched as Tyra busied herself around the room, moving the serversand stuff around...Mark couldn’t honestly get how a woman so beautiful and yetsuccessful wasn’t married already...He had been asking about her throughStephanie and Shane. As soon as everyone finished breakfast...I was sitting at the front desk withFelipe. Felipe said, “Ainsi...qu'un du boeuf américain durcit êtes vous radotantau-dessus de la Mlle. Billings?” I said, “Ceux-ci car vous le mettez les gâteauxaméricains de boeuf fonctionnent avec mon dieu que le père... là isn't un dans legroupe qui pourrait tourner ma tête encore moins me font la bave.” Felipe scoffed and said, “C’mon I a vu la manière dont grand tattooed typeregardant effrayant vous observait mangent le petit déjeuner ce matin...que vousne pouvez pas me dire que vous ne pensez pas des hes...enfer attrayant si j'étaisune identification de femme pensez qu'il était sexy car un beau OE français defemme m'a parlé sale en français tandis que nous faisions l'amour.” I said, “Je doute à peine de que l'homme peut parler un lèchement de Français,veux encore moins le parler me tout en rendant l'amour sale ou l'autre recherchede wise .I AM romane ou l'amour...que je veux juste courir cet endroit...c'est laseule chose j'ai laissée de la maman et du papa. quoiqu'il fasse beau d'êtreamoureux un certain jour...il est juste pas aujourd'hui. About that time Mark the big tattooed guy walked around the corner and said,“Excuse me Miss. Billings have you seen Shane anywhere?” The next thing that flew out of Felipe’s mouth was, “Oui... il est dehors sur leporche plan à son téléphone de cellules, mais vous ne devriez pas demander surlui quand vous si porter Tyra jusqu'à sa pièce de lui faire l'amour passionnésauvage.” Mark smirked when he saw Tyra’s eyes widen...he couldn’t imagine what Felipe hadsaid but it must’ve been good. Mark said, “Sorry but I don’t understandFrench...could you translate for me darlin’?” Trying not to choke on my tea I nodded and said, “He said, Shane is on the porchon his cell phone.” I could feel the crimson sliding into my cheeks. Mark leanedover the counter and said, “I may not know French, but I know there was more towhat he said, and I also know a beautiful woman doesn’t blush for no reason.” I swallowed hard and blushed even deeper. I said, “Yes...there was more...butFelipe was being distasteful and disgusting...and I apologize.” Mark said, “Hellhoney, don’t apologize...disgusting and distasteful comments are something I likedepending on who they are said to at certain moments.” My blush depends 15 times the legal limit and I giggled a little. Mark said, “Nowif you’ll excuse me...I’ll see you two trouble makers later tonight.” We watched Mark walk away and Felipe said, “Était-ce mon imagination ou cettegrande brute flirtait-elle avec vous?” I glared at him and said, “Silence Felipe!” Translation English: So...Which one of the American beef cakes are you drooling over Miss.Billings?French: Ainsi... qu'un du boeuf américain durcit êtes vous radotant au-dessus dela Mlle. BillingsEnglish: These as you put it american beef cakes work with my god father...thereisn't one in the bunch that could turn my head let alone make me drool.French: Ceux-ci car vous le mettez les gâteaux américains de boeuf fonctionnentavec mon dieu que le père... là isn't un dans le groupe qui pourrait tourner matête encore moins me font la bave.English: Cmon I saw the way that big tattooed scary looking guy was watching youeat breakfast this morning...you can not tell me that you dont think hes a littleattractive...hell if I was a woman id think he was sexy as a beautiful frenchwoman wo talked dirty to me in french while we made love.French: Cmon I a vu la manière dont grand tattooed type regardant effrayant vousobservait mangent le petit déjeuner ce matin... que vous ne pouvez pas me direque vous ne pensez pas des hes... enfer attrayant si j'étais une identificationde femme pensez qu'il était sexy car un beau OE français de femme m'a parlé saleen français tandis que nous faisions l'amour.English: I hardly doubt that man can speak a lick of French, let alone want tospeak it to me while making love dirty or other wise.I am not looking for romanceor love...I just want to run this place...it is the only thing i have left frommom and dad. even though it would be nice to fall in love some day...it is justnot today.French: Je doute à peine de que l'homme peut parler un lèchement de Français,veux encore moins le parler me tout en rendant l'amour sale ou l'autre recherchede wise.I AM romane ou l'amour... que je veux juste courir cet endroit... c'estla seule chose j'ai laissée de la maman et du papa. quoiqu'il fasse beau d'êtreamoureux un certain jour... il est juste pas aujourd'hui.French: Oui... il est dehors sur le porche plan à son téléphone de cellules, maisvous ne devriez pas demander sur lui quand vous si porter Tyra jusqu'à sa piècede lui faire l'amour passionné sauvage.English: Yes...he is out on the front porch on his cell phone, but you should notbe asking about him when you should be carrying Tyra up to her room to make wildpassionate love to her.French: Était-ce mon imagination ou cette grande brute flirtait-elle avec vous ?English: Was it my imagination or was that big brute flirting with you? French: Silence Felipe !English: Hush Felipe! Chapter 4 A couple of hours later, Mark walked over with Shane and said, “Is there any goodsnow tired transportation out of here?” I said, “Of course. My jeep.” Mark turned to Shane and said, “Shane can you drive me into town to pick up mybike? Your father called me and said he had it shipped here...which remind me tokiss that man the next time I see him.” I said, “Excuse me...You wanna get down this mountain to pick up your bike, Idrive you in my jeep...not Shane drives you in MY jeep...Are we clear?” Mark said, “No offence but you’re a woman.” I smiled and said, “None taken you over grown tattooed male chauvinist...Nooffence but your in my yard now Mr. Callaway. No one in this establishment knowsthese roads the way I do...I know which ones are safe to drive on and whicharen’t. If Shane takes you...you’ll either get lost or die from cold. And rightnow it’s not even cold out...but it will be tonight.” Shane said, “Alright then...Tyra wins.” Mark glared at Shane and said, “I don’tthink so boy.” I said, “Don’t try to intimidate him...and don’t even think oftrying to intimidate me...it won’t work...I don’t see you as some scary characteron TV...you’re just a man with a different job.” I grabbed my keys and Felipe snapped his fingers in the air and walked away withShane. I walked out onto the front porch and said, “Coming Chauvinist?” Marknodded and through gritted teeth said, “Yes ma’am.” We walked out to the garage/barn and uncovered my jeep...Mark said, “There’s noroof on this thing...and where are the doors?” I said, “Well...I guess you shouldhurry up or you’re gonna get snow on your hair.” Mark pulled himself inside...thejeep had a roll cage on it...and snow tires that went up to his waist...if nothigher. I slipped the gear shift into reverse as I backed out of the barn...I stoppedslipped a CD in the player, pulled my hair in a pony tail, slipped somesunglasses on and fastened my seat belt. I looked at Mark and with a smirk playing on my lips I said, “Attention to allpassengers you’re now sitting in the Whipped Your Ass 2003...please keep allarms, legs and objects inside the moving vehicle at all times...and oh yea don’tforget to buckle up cause it’s going to be a BUMPY ride.” Mark slapped his seatbelt on just in time to watch Tyra snap the gear shift intofirst as she let off the clutch and smashed down the gas. Mark grabbed the rollcage top bar and held on for dear life. On the way down the mountain they wentsliding through snow drifts and he’s pretty sure they ran over a few 16 foot talltrees...and he also could’ve sworn he heard a small rabbit cuss as they zoomed by it. The music started blasting through the speakers...and surprisingly enough youcould hear the words as they crashed and zipped through the crunching snow. *****************************Well, I ain't never been the Barbie doll typeNo, I can't swig that sweet champagne, I'd rather drink beer all nightIn a tavern or in a honky tonk or on a four-wheel drive tailgateI've got posters on my wall of Skynyrd, Kid and StraitSome people look down on me, but I don't give a ripI'll stand barefooted in my own front yard with a baby on my hip 'Cause I'm a redneck woman an' I ain't no high class broadI'm just a product of my raisin' I say 'hey ya'll' and 'yee-haw'And I keep my Christmas lights on on my front porch all year longAnd I know all the words to every Charlie Daniels songSo here's to all my sisters out there keepin' it countryLet me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeah Victoria's Secret, well there stuff's real niceBut I can buy the same damn thing on a Wal-Mart shelf half priceAnd still look sexy, just as sexy as those models on TVI don't need no designer tag to make my man want meWell, you might think I'm trashy, a little too hard coreBut in my neck of the woods, I'm just the girl next door Hey, I'm a redneck woman an' I ain't no high class broadI'm just a product of my raisin' I say 'hey ya'll' and 'yee-haw'And I keep my Christmas lights on on my front porch all year longAnd I know all the words to every Tanya Tucker songSo here's to all my sister's out there keepin' it countryLet me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeah I'm a redneck woman an' I ain't no high class broadI'm just a product of my raisin' I say 'hey ya'll' and 'yee-haw'And I keep my Christmas lights on on my front porch all year longAnd I know all the words to every ol' Bocephus songSo here's to all my sister's out there keepin' it countryLet me get a big 'hell yeah' from the redneck girls like me, hell yeahHell yeah, hell yeahHell yeahI said hell yeah!***************************** As the came sliding to a stop...Mark suddenly realized this girl was home tohim...he hadn’t had that much fun in a long, LONG time...and listening to hercountry music at break neck speeds...made him feel like he was a teenageragain...Oh yea...he definitely wanted to get to know Tyra much better. I dropped Mark off and took off back up the mountain. I saw a smile playing onMark’s lips...Oh yea...he had a good time. Chapter 5 A couple of weeks later, Mark and I ended up talking a lot...it was nice. One dayMark had gone out riding all day...it wasn’t cold...it was pretty nice...most ofthe first snow had melted...even though we were due for a fresh batch any day. Iwas sitting in the sitting room with Stephanie and a few other wrestlers...Wewere just laughing and joking around... Mark walked in from his Motorcycle ride and I sucked in a breath...he had onjeans with black leather chaps that just fit his ass great...plus his blackhooded Deadman Inc sweatshirt, with his black leather vest over it. he had ablack bandana around his head and his hair pulled into a low tail...with blacksteel toed boots and sunglasses. I looked around and then jumped up and ran over to him and said, “OH MY GOD CAN IHAVE YOUR AUTOGRAPH?!?!?!” Mark smirked and said, “What?” I pouted and then said, “Oh...My mistake...I’m sorry...” Mark said, “What are yousorry for darlin’?” I said, “I thought you was one of the Village People therefor a minute and was about to ask you to do your rendition of YMCA.” Paul was sitting next to Stephanie and for the life of him couldn’t keep astraight face...he said, “Oooo...Ouch.” Mark gave Paul the finger. As the rest ofus rolled with fits of laughter. Mark just shook his head and walked passed us and into the kitchen...calling me asmart ass ring leader and everyone else a pack of following hyenas. I laughed and hopped over the back of the couch and walked after Mark into thekitchen...by the time I’d gotten in there with him, his vest and chaps werehanging on the back of the door. I jumped up and sat on the counter and said,“You’re not really mad are you?” Mark looked at Tyra and the smile she had on her beautiful face and he knew hewasn’t mad...he shook his head no...and said, “It’s easy making fun of guys whodon’t hit women huh?” Tyra said, “Men don’t hit me...and if they ever did...it’llbe the last thing they ever did as a man again...If you...uh...catch my drift.” Mark cringed and said, “Unfortunately I do.” Mark watched as she jumped down and started loading the dirty dishes into thedishwasher. Mark watched as her jean covered ass danced in front of him. Markcouldn’t stand it anymore...He walked over and took her by the arm and turned heraround...and pulled her tiny body tight against his. Her chest moving up and down against his as she started breathing heavy inanticipation. All of a sudden Mark leaned down and pushed his lips softly againsthers. Her mouth opened to grant his tongue access to her. As the kiss started to get deeper...Tyra pulled away...Mark looked down and sawshe had a couple of stray tears sliding down her cheeks. Mark softly caressed hercheek and said, “I’m sorry Tyra.” Tyra said, “No...it’s okay...it’s not you...I just don’t want a repeat of 11months ago...I’ve learned to live without certain people in my life...and havingyou and then watching you leave would hurt worse...cause you’d be leaving on yourown free wheel...and not because you was taken from me.” Mark said, “You’re talking about your parents?” Tyra shook her head no...shesaid, “I don’t wanna talk about it right now...I wish I could...but not right now.” Mark said, “You know I’m here if you wanna talk.” She nodded and walked out ofthe room. Mark heard her go up stairs...probably to her room...he hoped he hadn’tscared her. Chapter 6 A couple of days later it was around 4 am. Mark hadn’t been able to sleep...thenights were getting colder and he had been wanting to talk to Tyra about thekiss...He wanted to tell her how much she was truly affecting him, physically andmentally. She seemed to be the only person on his mind as of late. Though for the life of him, Mark couldn’t understand why...he had a specialsomeone at home waiting for him...he’d decided against bringing her along,because like everyone else...he could use the time alone to concentrate on tryingto relax and not having to worry about someone tagging along with him. Tyra either didn’t realize it or just didn’t ask about it...but Mark looked downat the necklace...He just laid in bed with the moonlight shinning in the room, hepicked it up and stared at his wedding rings. Everyone in the company knew he wasmarried...so they either hadn’t told her...or they just didn’t realize he wasfalling for her. Mark heard the bed creek next door...it was Tyra’s room. She was often an earlyriser but this was a bit early even for her. He heard her pad around in her barefeet on the wooden floors and thought she was going to catch pneumonia. Helistened as she opened her closet and dresser drawers...once he heard her bootedfeet walk to the door and out and down the steps. Mark pulled himself out of bed and went to pull his jeans and boots on...hewalked over and after he pulled the necklace off he put it in the top drawer andclosed it as he pulled on a hooded sweatshirt with his Deadman Inc. theme on it.He pulled his hair back and put his bandana on and walked out and followed Tyra’sfoot steps in the light dusting of snow they had received in the middle of thenight some time. He followed them to a hill and at the bottom of the hill was concrete stairs madeinto the ground and a metal pipe handle going along their stairs. He followed herfoot steps up the stairs. When he got to the top he stopped...Tyra was sitting onher knees in the snow dust in front of 3 headstones. He watched as she prayed...when she finished she leaned over and kissed the twolarge headstones and the smaller heart shaped head stone she knelt in front ofand leaned her head against. Mark saw the last name on the two bigger head stoneswas Billings...so Mark knew it was her parents. But he didn’t know who the thirdone belonged too. Mark watched silence as Tyra slowly stood up and brushed the snow off her jeansand then placed a lingering kiss on top of the 3rd head stone...Mark could hearher sniffling...she must’ve been crying. Mark took a step and Tyra must’ve heardhim cause she spun around and stopped...her face was tear streaked. She shook her head and said, “You shouldn’t be out of here...you’re going tocatch pneumonia.” Mark walked over and said, “I could say the same for you...up here alone sittingin the cold snow.” I whipped my cheeks and eyes and said, “I’ve lived up here mywhole life...I’m used to it.” Mark walked over and stood next to me and said, “Sothis is where you’re parents are buried...it’s beautiful.” I said, “The sun risesup over this hill...you can stand here and look back at the Inn and it lookedlike everything is just tranquil and at peace.” Mark said, “So Who is the 3rd headstone for?” I looked down and then back up atMark and said, “My husband.” Chapter 7 Mark’s head jerked down and he said, “You’re husband...you’re not that old...Youcan’t be more then 19.” I said, “25 in a month...I married really young.” Mark said, “Just how young exactly?” I said, “20...Ryan was 21. We were married for 3 years...My parents were killedin the plane crash and a year later Ryan was killed in a snowboarding accident.That was 11 months ago. He was gliding down the hill and went to jump from onebank across the road to another snow bank and he landed in the middle of theroad...a car was coming and he was trying to get the clasps on his board andboots un-done, but they wouldn’t budge....the car slammed on their brakes...butit was too late...they hit ice and slid into him. I popped my board off and wentto him...he was still alive...they air lifted him to the nearest hospital...and Iwent with but on the way there he died.” Tears sliding down my cheeks as I recalled Ryan telling me he loved me before hetook his last breath. Mark felt his heart go out to Tyra...he knew there was nothing he could say tomake her feel better...he put his arm around her and she turned into him andcried hard. Mark carried her back to the Inn and put her back in bed for a few hours. When I woke up...I went down stairs and Felipe said, “Bien- Bien, le regard quis'est finalement levé... apprécient votre peu promenade avec M. tatouage?” I rolled my eyes and said, “Fermé Felipe... j'ai un mal principal la taille duBrésil de pleurer et de Ja Pas à vouloir vous accepter pour redresser cette seconde.” Felipe said, “Est-ce que quelqu'un s'est réveillé du côté faux du lit? Est-ce quevous faites-vous vous réaliser une promenade gentille ce matin... vous pourriezavoir attrapé le pneumonia?” I said, “Je suis allé aux pierres principales et la marque m'a suivi là... quej'ai fini vers le haut de lui dire chaque chose.” Felipe said, “Ryan Même?” I nodded yes and Felipe covered his mouth with his hand and said, “I'm Tyradésolé... que je n'ai pas connu que... il doit avoir blessé pour lui indiquerchaque chose. Êtes vous ok?" I rubbed my temples and said, “Oui, je veux juste être laissé un seul pendant unmoment cependant. Je vais obtenir quelque chose manger et quelque chose pour monmal de tête... et retourner alors à ma pièce... donnent svp chaque mes excuses etleur disent que je ne veux pas des visiteurs.” Felipe said, “Oui Madame.” Felipe walked away and I did just what I said I was going to do...I walked downto the kitchen and got some aspirin and breakfast and went back up stairs andspent the rest of the day in bed. Translation Well-well, look who has finally gotten up...Enjoy your little walk with Mr. Tattoos? Shut up Felipe...I have a head ache the size of Brazil from crying and I do notwant to put up with you right this second. Did someone wake up on the wrong side of the bed? Did you have a nice walk thismorning...you realize you could have caught pneumonia? I went to the head stones and Mark followed me there...I ended up telling himevery thing. Even Ryan? I'm sorry Tyra...I did not know...It must have hurt to tell him every thing. Areyou ok?" Yes, I just want to be left a lone for a while though. I am going to getsomething to eat and something for my headache...and then return to myroom...please give every one my apologies and tell them I do not want visitors. Yes Madame Chapter 8 A couple of weeks later...It was the night before the wrestlers were to go backon the road and leave. They’d decided they all wanted to go down into town tosome club / bar and have a good time drinking and dancing...I decided to juststay at the Inn... I was missing Ryan something awful...and knew I had feelings for Mark. But I feltas though I was cheating on Ryan. I’d heard through the grape vine that Mark wasmarried to some great girl named Sara who was at their home in Houston Texas. I felt ashamed for having feelings for another woman’s husband...but it wasn’tlike he was exactly making it easy...Before I even knew he was married...Hekissed me...I liked it...I hadn’t been kissed like that since before Ryan died. I was walking around the Inn with the stereo on and one of the most beautifulsongs came on...it made me think of Ryan instantly...It was called One Sweet Dayand was sung by Mariah Carey & Boys to Men... As I was walking around the Inn listening to the song, I was crying and takingshots of Southern Comfort and Jack Daniels. *****************************Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say. Now it's too late to hold you. 'Cause you've flown away, so far away. Never, Had I imagined, yeah, living without your smile. Feelin' and knowing you hear me. It keeps me alive. Alive! And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together.One sweet day. Picture a little scene from Heaven. Darling, I never showed you.Assumed you'd always be there.I took your presence for granted.But I always caredAnd I miss the love we shared. And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven.Like so many friends we've lost along the way.And I know eventually we'll be together.One sweet day. Picture a little scene from Heaven. Although, the sun will never shine the same, I'll always look to a brighter day. Yeah, Lord, I know, when I lay me down to sleep,You'll always listen, as I pray! And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together.One sweet day. And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven,Like so many friends we've lost along the way, And I know eventually we'll be together.One sweet day. Sorry, I never told you, all I wanted to say***************************** Mark came back from the bar early, and saw Tyra sitting on the couch crying anddrinking...Mark helped her up stairs and started a shower for her...and told hershe’d feel better after she took a nice long hot shower. He left the room and I showered...he was right...I had sobered up some what. Iwrapped a towel around my self and toweled the water out of my hair and sat onthe bed...I couldn’t stop crying...I couldn’t stop thinking of Ryan. I was sitting on my bed and had my arm around the bed post at the foot of the bedand my head leaning against it. I heard Mark walk in the room...his boots hadthat certain sound when they were thudding against the hard wood floors. I said, “You must think I’m some huge basket case...getting drunk and crying allover the place.” Mark came over and sat behind me and said, “No I don’t...I thinkthat you miss your husband...and that as hard as you try...you’re not even halfway done mourning the loss of him from your life.” I shook my head no and said, “Probably not.” I said, “I just never felt like trying to replace Ryan yet...You knowsomething...When I first met you...It scared me...You’re about the same size asRyan...of course he was not as tall as you...but he had tons of beautiful muscletone...and auburn hair like yours...with his go-tee and mustache. He always mademe feel like I was the most beautiful person in the world...like I could never bereplaced.” Mark said, “It’s because you are beautiful...and you are irreplaceable...There isno one on the face of the earth that could take your place Tyra.” I said, “Yousound so much like him...he was from San Antonio Texas...he had a deep southernaccented voice like you’ve got...I could listen to him talk for hours...aboutnothing in particular...even stupid stuff.” Chapter 9 *****************************Childhood livingIs easy to doThe things you wantedI brought them for you***************************** Mark moved around on the bed and draped his legs off the side of the bed, so Iwas sitting between them. Being this close to someone in such a long time wasmaking my pulse race. His hands touch my waist and hips and I sucked in a breath. Mark put his lips close to my ear and whispered, “When was the last time a mantouched you?” My breath caught in my throat and I finally said, “Ryan and I madelove the night before his accident.” Mark said, “That is too long for a beautifulwoman to wait to not have been touched in so long.” *****************************Graceless ladyYou know who I amYou know I can't let youSlide through my hands***************************** Mark’s lips touched the skin on Tyra’s neck and she instantly felt the warmth.Tyra said, “I don’t think you should be doing that Mark.” Mark said, “Close youreyes...and listen to the sound of my voice...My name is not Mark...Its Ryan.”Mark kissed Tyra’s neck again and her head moved to the side letting him havebetter access. Mark’s hands slowly started to slid along her thighs as he lifted her up andmoved her back to lay on the bed beside him...he laid her on her back as he laidon his side, still kissing and licking paths from her shoulder to her ear andneck...he finally kissed up to her lips...as his big hands caressed their waydown the curves of her body. His finger slightly brushed her towel coverednipples and Tyra moaned into his mouth. As their tongue slowly searched eachothers mouths. *****************************Wild HorsesCouldn't drag me awayWild horsesCouldn't drag me away***************************** His hands slowly opened the bottom of the towel as his finger tips traced hotpatterns on her flesh...his hand slid down and he slowly moved her thighsapart...draping one leg over his and moving the other one over a little...and heslowly and methodically moved his index finger up and down her wet slit. She waspositively soaking...so he knew she was fully enjoying it. Plus the deep throaty moans and groans that were coming into his mouth from herswas another give away...Then slowly He pushed his middle and index finger intoher aching core...as far in as he could...he could instantly feel more wetness onhis thick fingers. He slowly started to work his fingers in and out of her...hewanted tonight to be all about her. He knew he had to leave in the morning...butfor one night he wanted to bring Ryan back for her. *****************************I watched you sufferA dull, aching painNow you decidedTo show me the same***************************** He stopped what he was doing and pulled his fingered from her scorching core andhe started kissing her neck and kissed her ear and said, “C’mon baby...You know Ilove it when you moan my name...” he peeled her towel open and started kissingdown to her breasts. Where he took her left nipple in his mouth first...and hegot a small moan from her...slowly arching her back up and pushing her nippleinto his mouth more. He moved over and took her right nipple into his mouth...She got vocal, “Oooh God baby. That feels so good.” He kissed down her flat stomach and moved her knees up as his tongue started toenter her core...she finally moaned out, “Ryan...Mmmmm.” He laid and licked ather slit until she’d moaned Ryan at least a hundred times...and then he slowlycrawled up her body and said, “Are you ready for me baby?” *****************************No sweeping exitsor off-stage linesCan make me feel bitterOr treat you unkind***************************** She nodded and he said, “You keep them beautiful eyes closed...and just feelit...Feel all the love I’m giving you...but I want you to keep moaning my namebaby...cause it’s from me to you.” She felt him slid between her thighs and she said, “I’ve missed you so much...Ithought I’d never get you back...I’ve missed having you inside me...loving me theonly way that you can.” She felt him slid himself into her all the waypenetrating as deep as he could...and with a slowly steady rocking she felt himsliding in and out of her at a nice slow pace...letting her feel him slid nearlyall the way out and then pushing all the way him...feeling herself stretch aroundhim to get all of him in her. *****************************Wild HorsesCouldn't drag me awayWild, wild horsesCouldn't drag me away***************************** He was going slow and she kissed his ear and said, “Oh God Ryan please gofaster...I just want to feel you pushing in me and pulling out of me so hard...sofast...Mmmmm deeper Ryan please....” He pulled her knees up and held onto the back of her thighs as he started doingwhat she was begging for him to do...with every stroke he went a little deeper, alittle harder...and ever a little faster...she wrapped her arms around the spanof his back and held onto him as he did what he could to make her feel love, evenif it wasn’t his love...it was her husbands love for just one night. *****************************I know I dreamed youA sin and a lieI have my freedomBut I don't have much time***************************** Listening to her moaning her husbands name and not his hurt, but the fact that hebrought her husband to life just one more time...was enough to make all the hurtand heart ache go away. She knew deep in her heart that the man making love to her wasn’t herhusband...but she couldn’t help but moan out his name...Ryan was the love of herlife...dating through high school and college married for 3 years they’d beentogether for nearly 11 years...Being with someone that long and to have themsuddenly taken away would obviously leave the other person heart broken. *****************************Faith has been brokenTears must be criedLet's do some livingAfter we die***************************** She knew after tonight she’d have to continue her life again without him...butfor one night she could truly love again...even if it was for just one night...Itwas worth every minute. His strokes got longer, harder and deeper and then as if by a chance he pushedhimself all the way inside of her as they both yelled out each others names astheir orgasms swept and took over their bodies...she felt him explode deep insideof her...and her body answered him back. *****************************Wild HorsesCouldn't drag me awayWild, wild horsesCouldn't drag me away***************************** He laid there on top of her still inside her and planted kisses all over her faceas she breathlessly said, “I loved you so much Ryan...Why did you have to leaveme...” Tears slid down her cheeks as she held onto him...he carefully pulled out of herand laid to the slid...he pulled her over onto his chest as she cried her self tosleep still declaring her love for her husband. Mark soon fell asleep after Tyra. *****************************Wild, wild horsesWe'll ride them somedayWild, wild horsesWe'll ride them someday***************************** Chapter 10 In the morning...I moved around the bed a little and slowly woke my self up...Icould here something rustling around the room...I sat up with the covers aroundmy chest and Mark was walking around the room getting dressed. I pushed my long hair out of my face and said, “Morning.” Mark looked over andsaid, “Morning.” He got done with his boots and stood up and said, “Look...about lastnight...I’m...” Before he could finish I said, “Thank you. I know why you didit...and I really appreciate it.” Mark said, “Well...Listen, I have to go packand shower...Get some more sleep...we’re not leaving for a while.” I nodded andlaid back down. A few hours later I got up and showered. As I walked down stairs, the wrestlers were just getting all their bags packedback into the SUV’s...I said my good-byes to all of them, hugged Stephanie andShane...and Mark came over and I stood on my tip toes and kissed his cheek andwhispered, “Thank you.” Mark hugged me tight and said, “You’re welcome.” He got in the SUV and I hugged Shane and Stephanie one more time and then stoodon the porch with Felipe and watched as they drove away. - -18 Months later- - *****************************Every night every day I tell my heart to forget you and to move away Not to break anymore But, oh, no matter What I say You're so deep in my mind There's no way to leave this love behind It used to be I believe I could go on and find someone to Rest upon anyone, anyone Soon I found There was no other There you are Framed against the sky You are my life and I pray for when You will be mine To love again ***************************** I was sitting in the grass on top of the hill again holding my son Ryan MarcusBillings Jr. in my arms...He was the most beautiful baby in the world...he wasjust 9 months old. And his red head and big green eyes...were just absolutelygorgeous. *****************************I see the rain in the sky And I see your face Through every tear that I cry With every breath and every sound I can hear another voiceAnd swear that you're around And every word is clear 'Cause I know The memory won't let go Until you're mine To love again Who's to say what lives in the past Who's to say that love won't last Time's been standing still Waiting so patiently until Until that one day when When I will have you To love again ***************************** I looked at the headstone marked beloved husband and said, “Well...we really didit...I miss you so much...and no one can ever take your place...but at least witheverything we’ve been through and I’ve been through...I got to learn to love again. *****************************And there you are Framed against the sky You are my life And I pray for when You will be mine To love again***************************** The End E-mail Lady B at taker123@yahoo.com.
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